Your best friend knows you a lot.. Our Best friends are the one whom we can share our secrets, plans in lives, our dreams, emotions, feelings.. They are the one whom we can turn on in times of sorrows, pains.. Gives us strength to face those crisis in our lives, a shoulder to lean on.. Makes us laugh when we are sad.
Sometimes we can't handle things to happen.. Others fell in love with their best friends, the others just stay as friends for life.. Sometimes friendship makes us happy and sometimes not.. You know why I say this?
Well, I have a best friend of mine in opposite sex. I don't know how we became best friends. In fact when we were in high school I don't even care about him. Not interested in him. After a 6 long years here we are sharing things in our lives. Helping each other in times of crisis. Sharing opinions on what's best in each other. Helping each other decide what to do to solve the problem. Making each others laugh when one of us sad. Other's thought that we have a relationship because of the closeness that we have.
The truth is he has already a special someone. He shares to me his love life. Tell me about his date with her girlfriend, the things they did on that day. How they are happy because they see each other, that they had a chance to meet again. How they missed each other because days had passed before they see each other. He thought that I'm happy for him especially his love life because that was he sees in me and that's what I want to see him in me..
If only he would know that I'm hurting while sharing those to me..
Yes, I'm falling in love with my best friend but I don't want him to know this.. That I have a special feeling to him. That I'm only pretending happy for him while he was sharing about their relationship.
I don't want him to know about this feeling of mine because I'm afraid that this would affect our closeness, our friendship.. So I'll just keep this feeling.. Hoping that one day our friendship would turn to be more that friendship which is "Love"...
